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Saturday, January 26, 2008
well i have only one thing to say...i am so F***ing bored!!...so F***ing F***ing bored...that all i feel like saying is F***!!!....tat is sooooo not me....i mean seriously i hardly ever swear...unless i am F***ing pissed...which is hardly ever...or F***ing bored...which makes me F***ing pissed....it's a link reactin....now i am crappin...sighs....well since i am so F***ing bored...all i do is have flashbacks....some things that are like embaressing...i hv had some embarressin moments...some things that hurt like F***...somethings that u wish u can go bck to esp the trips we took wif the buddies...and somethings that u wish wld happen all over again in a increased frequency...but still things happened for a reason....i for one hated my secondary school..i juz didnt fit in...i was a geek/freak....a gereak?!?....well i was neither thin nor pretty nor atheltic nor rich...so that put me in like a outcast kind of situation...to top it all of i am not a extrovert either....a very bad combination for secondary school....but that changed in sec4...i became thinner and prettier but that cld not change wat 3.5 years of lookin like a gereak....so i left school without turnin bck...sure i had some good times ther....but nothin tat i wld miss significantly...and then ther was college...i was not as invisible as i wasin sec sch...i did look bettter...but i was still introverted...tat still has not changed...but wat e heck right...anyways back to coll i was actually lovin coll...then IT happened...watever it was made me hate coll even more then sch...well at least tis time people knew who i was i guess...still it sucked...but prom was awesome!!!...well juz cos i was in the company of friends...and alcohol...haha...i did not have tat much to drink....so wateva...other the trips were great!!...so in short i have to say that the outcome of coll was far more fun then the outcome of sec sch...now i m worried about the uni...hw will this work out for me??...i dont noe n frankly i m a bit paranoid...seeing people i thot i wld neva have to..but wat the hell right...i live my life let them live theirs....but wat about the rest of the population???...r they the narrowminded ones or the open minded kind??....but does it make me narrowminded cos i even considered it???....i dont noe....only thing i can be sure of is that i am juz bored right now....