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i m nt really in e mood in writin bout e hols....but will cont soon...u noe wat some1 told me tat some1 likes me...i m so confused...tat is sooo not possible...it juz isnt cos guys don like me i like guys...i will fall hand over heels for guys but it neva is e other way...n it definetily can nt b tis person....n e truth is i wont eva ask them oso cos it is juz 2 e sombong..u noe...but i wld neva mean it tat way....i juz wld like 2 noe...it wld b so nice if it wer true cos it will b a nice change n it really wld help my rapidly dimishin self esteem...but it wldnt really damage it if it was false...on another completely different note...god i feel like every1 is leaving...i noe e moment e 1st person leaves then it will all sart hapopening...cos then all of them will leave one by one until there is no one else...then i will leave...its over....can u believe it!!!...i will neva noe if e gang will hold 2gether 4 years 2 come...i will b devastaed if they dont...i am going 2 miss them....and as they say e 1st cut is e deepest....

well e alevel results r like out n i got like 3As n 1B....i am like totalli mortified...i mean like it is so like not e fair cos like i m like e only one of 4 people from my mum's gang who didnt get all As...so i m like totalli pissed...so like juz wateva....i mean it means niothing 2 me if i don get all As but m a HELP "achieveier"....i juz feel really stupid....i missed e 4th A by like 1 mark....so like u noe...juz wateva u noe....hence m feelin like taotal bimbo cos like bimbos r like supp 2 be like not like 5tat smartish...so like yeah...

u noe last time i was digging my grave in a middle of e field....somehow someone rather a group of people pulled me out of it...i thot i wld neva do it again...but alas but now i m diggin again but not in e same place n wif a fake house as blockade....u noe wat juz wateva...

well let us move along 2 e nxt place tat i visted tat wld b Pulau Perhentian...it is like really awesome...i mean e sea is freaking BLUE!!!...i m freakin serious..like in e postcards....i hv bnn lookin 4 a bead necklace tat has e same blue as e sea which i saw but cant find any!!!...well we left like a night bfore at 9 plus...ther wer a few undesireables ther but screw them i was goin 2 hv a ball n i did weather they liked it or not....we arrived at e jetty at like 4 in e morning n had 2 wait at a dingy eatry for 4 hours until e jetty opened...until then we waited for e sunrise which i missed at langkawi....it was GORGEOUS....then we got e 1st boat 2 e island...we wer stayin at a budget hotel wif e 2nd best beach...well on e 1st day we arrived...i was stayin wif Fong Wen Sarah n Ei Ling i one small dingy room which didnt hv a/c or proper fan...n no hot water...i noticed tat in e days tat if i washed my hair in loike cold water it responded better....anywho we pretty much juz lazed around played Volleyball...n we also got a chance 2 canoe...well i was canoein wif Ei Ling...it was nt such a ggd idea...cos neither of us was exactly physically fit...anywho...we got caught on a rock n i had 2 push us cos i was e bigger of e 2 of us...but due 2 e deas corals n stoneds in tat area i cut my foot...my m,um was nt happy...unfortuate..or fortuately...ther was no reception in e hotel n u cld only get it at e beach...it is funny...it was scary tat i cldnt contact any1...but i was also calmin...(now i m soun din like those romance novels)....sighs...well lets put it tis way....it was nice...tst night we played cards n such...n went 2 bed...e nxt day we went jugle trekin for n hour then we explored e shores of e island by trkking around e island...e whol;e juourney took like 2.5 to 3 hours....i was exhausted 2wards e end n kept slippin...n i noticeed tat near our hotel ther appeared 2 b alot of ants....these arnt ur household ants but e red ants....well afterr tat exhaustin adventure...(who bight idea was it 2 take e "easy" way)...anyways after tat we wen for lunch then we decide tat we wanted 2 do snorkling.....IT WAS E BEST EXPERIENCE EVER!!!!.....GORGEOUS!!!...MAGNIFICENT!!!....F***in AWESOME!!!....i touched a turtle..saw baby sharks...swam wif e fihes...saw nemo n dory...plus played wif e christmas tree worms....someone was stung by a tiny jellyfish....lol...well 2 top it all off...we wen 2 a spring 2 bath...it was GREAT!!!...we had dinner...n then wen for a walk in e low tide.....e water level ressiedes sooo much tat it is almost like 1 football feild leghth away...funny thing is tat u can see crabs...on e 1st day we saw a massive crab....on e second on small crab on e 3rd 3 carbs 1 dead...we discovered it was murder as it's claw was detached....on e 1st nite since some of them were scared we didnt go 2 far out...well tat concludes part one for 2day...

i wen 2 bahau watched 2 movies in on day n toutored arrti in e ppast 4 days...

u noe it sucks it really....my name makes me such a totally dateable?loveable character yet still i m single...i m goin 2 moan n groan n complain until my love situation becomes different....L: One of the most romantic people you know(i shld b if all e romance novels i hv read)...O: Really easy to fall in love with(well so far i hvnt seen tis happenin)...S: Lives life for fun(tis is true)...H: Easy to fall in love with(SEE!!!i m supposed 2 b easy 2 fall in love!!!...so y is it nt happenin)...A: DROP DEAD GORGEOUS(times 2 cos i hv 2 A)...N: Good bf/gf(More evidence tat i m dateable)...I: Love to laugh(my nickname has e I plus it's true)...mayb i shld hv a T: Great Kisser or D: Is a great dancer or E: Have beautiful eyes....F***....well screw them.....

k so wher did i stop i had finished my prom so e nxt thing on my 'agenda' was LANGKAWI..well let's put it tis way...my mum was nt 2 keen in sendin me ther...cos everything ther is duty free...i mean EVERYTHING..anyways...includin alcohol..so u can see y...well anyways let's put it this way we didnt do much of activities per se...rather we did more of like things...so anyways day 1..we all arrive brif=ght n eartly 2 take e connectin bus from e KL sentral 2 e LCCT...although we wer in 2 different flights...we all arrived very early at e LCCT..we wer on e 10.45 n 11.45 planes..so we arrived like quite e early...we juz yhaung around LCCT...wen we arrived at e airport we like totalli wer hungary so basically we arrived at e chalets at like 4 close to 5 i think...well so we juz checked in made e room ours..of course ther was some drama bout e room arrangements....but i wasd cool wif my...i was in e room wif e cute toh n xin, e happeneing dhaya, n 'men' ajay arvindah n jaya...after e unfortunate incident...jaya moved out...well anyways since we like arrived 2 late 2 do anything..we juz wen out had dinner then we like returne 2 drink..u got it drink....well anyways i hv 2 say it was nt very smart tat we tried 2 compete cos frankly i lost count after 14 drinks....yup i had more then 14 drinks...had no clue wat happened tat nite....i m serious i hv no idea wat e hell happened cos i was tat wasted...anyways...wat happened in langkkawi stays ther...so any drunk stories or fags smoked stays in e north...well anyways i shld say e nxt day i woke up late as did many...we like juz droe around in e agasa...e van members included....me priyanan sheela divya priyada arvinda n ajay i thionk...but as e time wore on e people switched around...anyways we juz checked out some mall...ate out juz chilled....then we like wen back in e evenin 2 change...trust me getting 23 people ready wif only 3 bathrooms was no mean feat...it was hectic...annoying...n MADNESS...well tis night i dint get wasted but we got 2 drink at e beach...it was very fun...since it was a private beach we got 2 do wateva we wanted...we like went crazy...tat nite i hung oput wif xin toh n lolo....we together wif tar dhaya rando n i think lyds...waited n betted on wher e sun will rise but unfortuately ther was no sun rise ...it juz got really bright...i tell u...ARRRGH!!...at this point i had developed a really bad rash so tat afternoon....me priyanan, dhaya n arvinda...followed me ther...n at e spur of e moment we decided 2 rent scooter...n tat wld begin my most fave 3 hours or e trip...we rode on 2 some kampung area stole somne rambutans tat was unquie tastin...n on e promtin of one a stranger we wen 2 this fishery...it was GORGEOUS!!!...it looked like somethin out of national geographic...we talked but deep meaningful thing.....but still kept ourselves grounded...then we wen 2 this rusted roadside place 2 makan....e food was dirt cheap...n absoutely delish!!!....i was riding wif priya n dhaya n arvinda rode 2gether....dhaya was a real mat rempit....i tell...out of no wher she wld over take us...then that nite we like drank but dhaya had so violent reaction 2 e drink..so i had 2 look after her...it was scary...cos she was literalli bowling over...plus tat was e nite tat priyanan, sheela, n arrti decided 2 get drunk....i tell u....priya n sheela wher e peaceful ones...but arrti...she is strong sports women..n no one MAN cld hold her down....anyways...e nxt day we checked out at 12...after much rushin n pushin n shovin...tat day i lost my IC...or mayb some pickpocketed it i don noe but my purse wen missin...well i shed alot of tears tat day...guess i got up on e wrong side of e bed tat day i don noe...but frm e mo i woke up u had tis gut feelin tat somethin was goin 2 go a wrong...but b4 tat happened i blew like a HUGE buget on chocolates....so we arrived home...tellin each other tat tis was nt e end of e gang....n i sure hope nt...really i do....


p.s i found out tat i m alleric 2 alcohol...thus e rashes....i m juz a sad case okay...SAD CASE!!!!....



well sheela n priyanan celebrated their birthdays 2 days ago n i wasnt ther...cos i was here...it was e BIGGEST party they hv ever had....n i was nt ther....i mean ther was a dance floor alcohol...great food...the works....i guess i feel like i was left out....i mean it was nt some humble gathering...it was a full blow out SURPRISE party....but i m sure they wld nt hv done tat on purpose...but still u noe...it was nt some gathering....it was party...n i actualli had a outfit 4 e event...can u belive it....so wen i don noe...wateva lah...i m sure tat sheela n priya had a freakin awesome time plus arvind n hari was ther...so it was even more like bigger 4 them u noe...juz tat i was nt ther 2 share in their joy i guess....well i guess i will hv 2 deal wif it...like i always hv...

it has bn like 2 mnths since i last blogged..cos framkly i was too darn buzy...TONS of things hv happened since then...for starters e exams r like over n i m waitin 4 my results which r like comin over in like less than 2 weeks...ARRRRGGHHHH!!!....well then i wen 4 e cristina aguilera concert, prom, langkawi, pulau perhentian n finally penang.....nw im bck in s'pore..hence i m able 2 blog....i thot mayb it wld b a gd idea if i blogged all that has happened in juz one entry hence i hv split them up in2 more then one entry...i shld say on e day that e exam ended we went 2 watch a movie of which i m nt sure of e name.....i think it was spiderman-3...then we wen out 2 hv lunch at e seafood place in b'sar...then we wen 2 then we wen home...at like 9.30, ten at nite....e nxt day i rush of 2 s'pore 2 do some stuff...then on e 31st of june i wen for e christina aguilera concert which was after my brother's carnival...which was totally awesome...she invented some of her old songs...so much so that u cld hardli see e similarities...i shld say tat ther were quite a few costume changes.. n it was alot of fun...anyways i was a bit disappointed cos like e crowd was nt dancin at all....but it was fun nevertheless...somehow after e concert she became a real person in my eyes...she was a human being...cos frankly it is a little hard 2 actually cnnect her voice 2 a body unless u see it....n at that mo i had a connect....she was nt christina aguilaera a singer...she was chritina the person..a human..u noe..do u get it...well if u don then wateva...i left s'pore e nxt day at 7.30am...it was quite e rush cos i had 2 be ready by 7.30 tat nite...i was madness do wax n do my hair then make up...all within less then 6 hours...wen i was don i was exhausted...darvin rando's date picked me up...n then we arrived fashionably late 2 prom but it was all in gd name...every1 was lookin their best...funny thing is that i didnt see anyone tat got on my nerves there..mayb i chose nt 2 see them..lol...nebertheless after e meal which was nt tat great e dance floor was opened...n guess wat we had a blast despite some of e songs being tat of the 90s n 80s...rock n roll...it was still a blast...i was als o on sari duty..lol...after tat we headed out 2 e club called sharara...since i was nt stayin over..i wen wi all those who wer nt stayin over..e place was borin...n e ppl creepy n drunk...anyways i was nt in e mood 4 dance cos it was hindi music plus...my feet hurt n i was exhausted...so anyways while pervina nad n lyds started on e drinks i waited 4 e rest of e ppl 2 come then e party started...hari ordered like whiskey n since ther wer like 16 of us e dance floor was all 4 us...but some how i distinctively remenber...tat every1 was fightin 4 dhaya 2 dance wif...lol...she's got some moves...dont play play... anyways i had like 6 or 7 whiskey..n ajay u did hv ONE more then me...but after 2 whiskey drinks...e foot pain stopped n we all wen dancin...i got reallly high but i realised that once i got unsteady on my feet tat was wen i stopped...i was damn hyper...n really friendly...n no i did nt touch anyone inappropriatelty...so chilll....but i was lless tension n funnier...i think...anyways rando helped walk 2 e car cos i was unsteady....she always comes 2 e rescue...she is so sweet...sheela got drunk n she is so funny when she is drunk...she onli looks innocent...but u neva noe wat goes on really in her head...plz i met sharmini dhaya's cuz...she look like dhaya...somethin bout them is very similar...i dont noe wat...lyds nad n ajay(e hero) also got wasted...all in all it was a totalli great day...i had loads of fun...

juz in case u didnt noe....I LOVE TO DANCE!!!!.....