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well i would like 2 apologise 4 e previous "bitchy" entree...but i cldnt help i was juz 2 darn tensionfied...but since i visited Mid-Valley...n e temple...m so much more calmer in mind..but still extremely tension...n oso yesterday i was feeling like "independent" women....like in a "dont need no man" thing goin on..guess cos i m nt exactly lucky in love so far so hence...i was feelin thus...but frankly speakin i guys dont really impress me much...i mean it good looks r nice 2 see but some how after about 10 minutes i tend 2 kinda not be bothered by it...now charmin guys leave n impression..but done really like them much cos...charmin guys=casanovas in my opinion...so as u can see guys dont impress me much...n i tend 2 wear my heart on my sleeve...so guys tend 2 sense i m nt impressed...so they tend 2 ignore me...i mean y tension over a girl who isnt impressed when ther is always some1 tat is obviosly impressed....i mean if i was some kind of gorgeous gal wif a big wallet n agreat bod then mayb it will bother them...but i m pretty but tat bout it i don hv a big wallet or a great bod so well guys tend nt 2 b bothered so much besides guys prefer gals whyo brush their ego not crush it...haha..but e thing is i feel alot more older nw then i did b4 cos i hv grown alot...bn through alot...i mean i was always wif ppl who were my age who thot like ppl my age...but here every1 thinks differently...n tat is nt a bad thing rather it is a gd thing u noe...but still i learnt alot...ppl who r willin 2 take u bck after u had ur moment n grown frm it r e real ppl...but ppl who like diss u even after tat r e ppl u don wan around...in some ways i m glad things turned out this way...i don really hv much of a choice...cos my mottyo in life is..."no regrets"...so if things bad or good happened...i don regret it i learn from they n grow from they...oh wateva...i m juz feelin emo nw oh well wateva...wat shld happen will happen...june is supp 2 b my love mnth but i m nt entirely sure now will c hw it goes....sighs....i don noe wat i wan anymore...juz e exams r already killin me...well gotta chiow...

well as it can obviously be seen that there is much exam tension tat is in e air...i mean alot...frankly since e phy 5 was like a total terror..i had no idea hw e rest of e papers r gonna b....plus e fact of e prom does nt really help i tell u...i don noe if i even wan a date but lookin i don reaaly hv much of a choice....cos almost every1 is comin wif a date i tell u...in date i mean 'date'...cos most of these ppl r juz frends tat r like hangin 2gether...who hv convinently paired up in such a way tat i hv no "date"...this means tat i hv 2 take some1 i don noe or don really noe as a 'date'....just great..i noe tat i will look juz fab...cos like duh!!!...lol...well i noe every1 will look fab cos it prom...i mean like duh!...anyways in all these proms ther is defintely goin 2 be a dance 4 couples only...n like duh...no matter who i bring now i wont dance tat dance cos i don really noe tat person anyways...juz like nt goin wif a 'date'...well anyways...prom is ine future n i don hv 2 tension bout it nw cos e exams r like more tensioning...i don even wan a study anymore...cos i m juz so fed up of studying i tell u...but gotta atick it out 4 1 more week.....sighableness

juz whateva....

will post-pagent life is quite e peaceful excpt 4 e impending exams that is evidently loomin over my head....tension does not even come close to describing how i feel...i hv decided 2 acceptv manchester's offer cos its e only uni where e financial and the academic situation seem 2 suit me best....well it seems 2 me tat my exams r e final straw tat will decide my future n i am so mot kidding....although my place in manchester is pretty much set i am still quite unsure cos it does nt fit in2 my great plan for my life..as a saying goes "man proposes, but god disposes"...if u get it then good if nt then juz 4get bout it...well sha is so goin 2 kill me i can feel it i havent called her in ages...i will call i promise....yes kohila i will call n oso don tension....i noe ther mus b another guy now....um....well anyways...the whole langkawi thing is goin 2 be a blast....u noe wat in want 2 buy gloves...not e winter kind...the satin up 2 elbows used for gowns kind...so if anybody knows wher 2 get it let me noe k..will anyways catch u around muz study....i neva study last week cos i felt sick now recent weekend my mum dad n sis came down so obviously i didnt study now lah i am so dead n far behind....AIYOH!!!...
p.s.i cant believe i 4got 2 say tat during e pagent wen i was walkin up e stairs on stage i stepped on my saree....n ALL the pleats came out!!!...i juz gripped it and continued walking....!!!....