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Wednesday, April 25, 2007
AAAARRRGGHHH!!!!!i tell u e moment tat i like am feeling better...some bitch has 2 come n ruin it all...n guess wat i am sure u r aware of who tat bitch is...mayb she is nt even a bitch she is a baby...yup a 19 yr old acting like a 9 yr old...took some1 else's perception 2 like make it all fall in2 place...i tell u i was so pissed she sent some super bitchy messages...n i cldnt do a thing cos every1 is like dont do anythin...i felt so...helpless....i HATE feeling helpless....i tell u my frends wer e onli ones keepin me from her if they said go for it...i tell u she wld hv hell 2 pay...cos she has nt seemn me pissed like fuck...like i was tat day..i onli teared cos i was so mad i wanted 2 break her neck but cldnt kind of frustration...plus being helpless...so not a good combi...so the bitch bitched...no biggi...took me less then a day 2 calm down my temper....but the thing tat really pushing me over...is her lil minion...yes she has tis guy who she is not even datin 2 do all her dirty work...tat stupid idiot sends me like 3 msges...all quite insultin...n i juz hv 2 like take it...he is freakin obsessed wif me...he is literalli haressing me!!....my god!!!...i tell u i was like juz on the verge of giving it 2 them nicely...but i am juz chillin cos as a wise man once said...conquer anger wif non-anger....so if she juz comes up 2 me n starts bitching...which i noe she is 2 chicken 2 do...then i will juz laugh in her face n walk away...then she is e one who will look like a fool....anyways i am like in singapore..i noe ther is like mocks n everythin...but i really needed a break...i am jus mentally emotionally exhusted...i really am tired...i really need 2 get away from e college atmophere....yea ppl in e gang n outside r being very nice 2 me n all...but i need 2 like recharge...i need 2 get away n b wif ppl nt related 2 e incidents of e past like 1 mnth lah..i really cant study anyways..so if i get rested then wen i return i will b better at mugging for e exams..i still get a like anger tat bubbles n boils inside of me wen i see the so-called-frends(SCFs)...latest new member dharrini...i hv 2 idea y she is ignorin me...but 2 can play tat game...i really dont need 2 noe lah...n guess wat 2 of the SCFs r also goin for e class trip...oh joy!...nw i am stuck day N nite wif them....but at least i am nt sharin rooms wif them lah...i tell u 2day is dhaya/s b'day so we celebrated it along wif jaya's(cos dhaya wanted it like tat she is really very nice lah tat dhaya)...anyways arrti's brother picked us up...u noe e cute one wif e convertible...I GOT 2 RIDE IN HIS CONVERTIBLE!!!...mayb e hood was on but still...well he does nt noe me cos i don go 2 arrti's hse 4 physics tution...then wen rt wen 2 open e gate...he asked our names again...n i tell u....n wen he heard my name..he said tis..."so ur e gal tat ajay likes"...actualli its nt true it actualli e reverse...i was like.."SORRY!"..thnk god rando came 2 my rescue...n said "he likes lots of gals"....i was so freakin embaressed..no MORTIFIED!!!....i didnt noe wher 2 put my face....i mean i think he is cute!!...ppl who u think r cute muz nt noe tis kind of things!!....tis means tat they muz hv toked bout it in arrti's hse...after tution or something...n he muz hv heard it...AIYOH!!!....he doesnt even come 2 HELP n he noes...kadavule!!....i juz pretended tat it was nothing n went on my merry way 2 celebrate e birthdays....so nw u noe i am juz totalli embaressed...