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Tuesday, April 17, 2007
I AM BACK!!!....you didnt actualli think i was going to delete my blog did u...i am juz 2 stubborn for tat....tis is my blog...mine...i am nt deleting it cos some ppl dont like it i juz changed e add...well anyways i hv been reading my old entries...now i feel so old...its like all e naiveity has gone...um...
funny huh...hw at 1st i did nothing but yet everybody started 2 like bitch bout me...making me mad n desperate(cos my frends wer abandonin me)...then makin me do things tat i did regret...i muz really b e most misunderstood person in coll...hahaha...funny is so not e word...hilarious is more like it...
some ppl ditched me like a sack of potatoes n ran off..."oh i am not used to this"..."we juz freaked out"..."let's juz be normal frends"...like WATEvA!!!...i dont care anymore...mayb i do but if i keep repeating this then i will actulli belief that i didnt care....funny e human mind....so guillible...so foolable...i was tryin so hard 2 hold on...like i was clinging to a tearing rope instead of leting go....if i should fall ther will b some kind of saftey net....if nt then 2 bad i die right....but thankfully ther was a safety net....all my friends that were ther for me...names need not be mentioned again...cos although some hv done more then other for me..i am juz as grateful to all of then...
i hv been dealing quite well nw wif all tat has happened...
well i do hv my coping mechanism...
some ppl make tea i juz dream about someone or something...
u most likely dont even noe he existed but i do...
n it allows me to cope with situations....
although i fell like i hv been betrayed....
n veri bitter i am learning to cope....
yes some of then decided tat since i was nbot like the rest of their frends tat i dont "deserve" their company
well u noe wat i am doin fine wifout them anyways....
at least now i noe who my real frends r....
thing is i noe some of the ppl who hv been bitchin bout me to....
some ppl who wer bitchy to me r suddenly being nice...
but i am juz goin 2 enjoy it while it lasts...
anyways life is lookin up but i am lookin down...well neverthless
i feel rejuvinated...n sha i am callin u soon...