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Saturday, April 28, 2007
i am bored..yup u read me rite...well not bored per se...i juz don wanna go bck 2 kl....yup will miss me family n frends..*sobs*...well i will hv tons of thinks to "look forward to"...haha..i am so dead lah...um i am so tired..hvnt slept in a long time...i am jus tokin nonsense lah..aiyoh!!!...um...well u noe wat i am in 1 of those moods...life is unfair mood...its a selfish self-centered mood...but for so long i kept thinkin wat other ppl r thinkin n feelin cos of wat i say or did...ppl who i cared bout ditched me...but hell...at least i noe their true colours rite...n others who wer weak tried to push me bck dwn wen i was tryin 2 get up....guess sometimes life wld hv it tat they exist tis ppl who push me dwn wen i was tryin 2 get up...cos ppl wat goes around comes around...n i mean it its nt some kind of corny song...although justin's song is power....hahaha...um...lets see....i am feelin life's unfair tat i am single n tat perfectly perfect guys r nt...i mean their perfect tat's y their nt single rite...but i mean y get bck wif some1 who cheats on u...is it worth it...wat r u goin bck 4...if she loved u then she wldnt hv done it...then y did u do it...cos ut afraid of lonliness of movin on....nw isnt tat juz plain cowardice...u cant handle lonliness then wat's e point of being human...u a born alone n will die alone...so some lonliness in btwn shld nt make u wanna cry or afraid...some lonliness is good for e heart head n soul...its called reflection...yes ppl rteflection...if u cant stand lonliness for a short period of time means u hv either done things tat make u ashamed or horrid at confortin then will make u realise wat kind of person u really r...so y go bck...cos u love her...y u think u cant love any1 else...some ppl dont seem 2 get it tat it is possible...look u r in ur teens...plenty of time ahead of u then y worry...cos u were happy together...does it even make sense...so wat if u were happy together...cos u can always b happy wif some1 else if u gave it a chance....nw if u were 2 say tat u r afraid tat she was e best thing tat eva happened n afraid tat u wont do better...then i hv one thing 2 say...tis is life things chang e constantly...the unpredictablility in life makes it life my frend...if u cant deal wif then i cant say anything at will make it better really i cant...but after all tis u still feel like running back then be warned tat sometimes..some mistakes can b repeated...n tis time it wont b a mistake...rite i am fine after all tat emoness..hahaha..um...well let me see...i think i will blog in my other blog...um...i juz realised tat ppl r goin 2 think tat i like rt's brother..PLZ!!!...NO WAY!!!!...i mean juz look onli...somethings wont go tat far plz okay....aiyoh i tell u....ppl r juz to over...juz TOOooo over...um... well got 2 go bubye....hahaha...