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i am bored..yup u read me rite...well not bored per se...i juz don wanna go bck 2 kl....yup will miss me family n frends..*sobs*...well i will hv tons of thinks to "look forward to"...haha..i am so dead lah...um i am so tired..hvnt slept in a long time...i am jus tokin nonsense lah..aiyoh!!!...um...well u noe wat i am in 1 of those moods...life is unfair mood...its a selfish self-centered mood...but for so long i kept thinkin wat other ppl r thinkin n feelin cos of wat i say or did...ppl who i cared bout ditched me...but hell...at least i noe their true colours rite...n others who wer weak tried to push me bck dwn wen i was tryin 2 get up....guess sometimes life wld hv it tat they exist tis ppl who push me dwn wen i was tryin 2 get up...cos ppl wat goes around comes around...n i mean it its nt some kind of corny song...although justin's song is power....hahaha...um...lets see....i am feelin life's unfair tat i am single n tat perfectly perfect guys r nt...i mean their perfect tat's y their nt single rite...but i mean y get bck wif some1 who cheats on u...is it worth it...wat r u goin bck 4...if she loved u then she wldnt hv done it...then y did u do it...cos ut afraid of lonliness of movin on....nw isnt tat juz plain cowardice...u cant handle lonliness then wat's e point of being human...u a born alone n will die alone...so some lonliness in btwn shld nt make u wanna cry or afraid...some lonliness is good for e heart head n soul...its called reflection...yes ppl rteflection...if u cant stand lonliness for a short period of time means u hv either done things tat make u ashamed or horrid at confortin then will make u realise wat kind of person u really r...so y go bck...cos u love her...y u think u cant love any1 else...some ppl dont seem 2 get it tat it is possible...look u r in ur teens...plenty of time ahead of u then y worry...cos u were happy together...does it even make sense...so wat if u were happy together...cos u can always b happy wif some1 else if u gave it a chance....nw if u were 2 say tat u r afraid tat she was e best thing tat eva happened n afraid tat u wont do better...then i hv one thing 2 say...tis is life things chang e constantly...the unpredictablility in life makes it life my frend...if u cant deal wif then i cant say anything at will make it better really i cant...but after all tis u still feel like running back then be warned tat sometimes..some mistakes can b repeated...n tis time it wont b a mistake...rite i am fine after all tat emoness..hahaha..um...well let me see...i think i will blog in my other blog...um...i juz realised tat ppl r goin 2 think tat i like rt's brother..PLZ!!!...NO WAY!!!!...i mean juz look onli...somethings wont go tat far plz okay....aiyoh i tell u....ppl r juz to over...juz TOOooo over...um... well got 2 go bubye....hahaha...

u will neva believe it...but i actualli meet a guy whose charmin!!...it was e infamous scott...i am serious!!!...nice guys nt tat hard 2 find...but CHARMING!!!...god impossible...i mean he was okay lookin lah...nothin fantastic...except tat he had like biceps....n he had a point 2 show off...wifout really tryin 2...n in fantastic shape...but wen he opened his mouth..he kinda sucked u in....amazin!!...i mean seriousli he had tis kinda presence...n he was actualli hvin a conversatn wif me ok...guys don really do tat...i tend 2 intimdate them...cos i am juz 2 intense...no really...cos i will literalli look them up n down 2 sum up their character...n that sumtimes comes off a but snobby...or mayb they juz cant handle it...haha...but he seemed 2 hold his ground...even though he is nt really my frend...he still made e effort...he didnt run n hide...but i was lookin so scranny...no make-up...hair in a uttert mess...tired..but hw e hell was i supp 2 noe i was meetin such a person in TOA PAYOH!!! of all places...but enough bout him lah...already taken...*sighs*....i wen 2 see e PHANTOM OF THE OPERA....it was so FREAKIN POWER!!!!!...THE BEST MUSICAL EVER!!!.....the SET WAS MOVING!!!!!.....crashin chandliers...movin gargoyles...floating boats....moving lights...n the SINGING FANTASTIC!!!!...MY GOD!!!....THE FREAKIN BEST EVA!!!!.....AHHHHHH!!!!....i thoroughly enjoyed myself...so worth e trip here...totalli....n e acting!!!!....so perfect!!....aiyoh!!!....i tell u....e best....i wen out wif sha....it was totalli a fun time juz hangin....i felt like i was so like free n like i had nothin 2 hide or feel like uncomfortable about...juz truly chillin....being funny lame...ourselves really....tat was nice 4 a change...i mean e gang are really nice n everything...but its like different lah...i guess its all in my head...hahaha....well then i oso met up wif nazeeya(wher i had a fab time..lol)...tat's wen i met e scott guy lah...haha...um i wonder...if i will see wif him again....hahaha...well i would for e record...say i am extremely sorry 2 vishnu...n my buddies(who stuck by me)..n no one else...cos i was wrong...he is not e dork...cos he was e onli person who didnt get along wif me who didnt behave like a typical Kottai...plus i have an extra note...

To Whom it may concern...
look if u send me one more msg i will report ui to e student welfare n have u suspended i mean it tis is an offical warning...i can actualli file a complaint of haressment cos i hv neva replied ur messages n i hv them all saved...so u better watch out...tis is not a threat its a warning...cos dont think i wont do it...n i noe u hv my blog add so no way tat u cxant read tis n b warned...


now bck 2 me...haha...well i am like goin bck tmr...n mocks on mon...I AM SO DEAD!!!!!!!....hahaha well tat's all lah...see u round...

AAAARRRGGHHH!!!!!i tell u e moment tat i like am feeling better...some bitch has 2 come n ruin it all...n guess wat i am sure u r aware of who tat bitch is...mayb she is nt even a bitch she is a baby...yup a 19 yr old acting like a 9 yr old...took some1 else's perception 2 like make it all fall in2 place...i tell u i was so pissed she sent some super bitchy messages...n i cldnt do a thing cos every1 is like dont do anythin...i felt so...helpless....i HATE feeling helpless....i tell u my frends wer e onli ones keepin me from her if they said go for it...i tell u she wld hv hell 2 pay...cos she has nt seemn me pissed like fuck...like i was tat day..i onli teared cos i was so mad i wanted 2 break her neck but cldnt kind of frustration...plus being helpless...so not a good combi...so the bitch bitched...no biggi...took me less then a day 2 calm down my temper....but the thing tat really pushing me over...is her lil minion...yes she has tis guy who she is not even datin 2 do all her dirty work...tat stupid idiot sends me like 3 msges...all quite insultin...n i juz hv 2 like take it...he is freakin obsessed wif me...he is literalli haressing me!!....my god!!!...i tell u i was like juz on the verge of giving it 2 them nicely...but i am juz chillin cos as a wise man once said...conquer anger wif non-anger....so if she juz comes up 2 me n starts bitching...which i noe she is 2 chicken 2 do...then i will juz laugh in her face n walk away...then she is e one who will look like a fool....anyways i am like in singapore..i noe ther is like mocks n everythin...but i really needed a break...i am jus mentally emotionally exhusted...i really am tired...i really need 2 get away from e college atmophere....yea ppl in e gang n outside r being very nice 2 me n all...but i need 2 like recharge...i need 2 get away n b wif ppl nt related 2 e incidents of e past like 1 mnth lah..i really cant study anyways..so if i get rested then wen i return i will b better at mugging for e exams..i still get a like anger tat bubbles n boils inside of me wen i see the so-called-frends(SCFs)...latest new member dharrini...i hv 2 idea y she is ignorin me...but 2 can play tat game...i really dont need 2 noe lah...n guess wat 2 of the SCFs r also goin for e class trip...oh joy!...nw i am stuck day N nite wif them....but at least i am nt sharin rooms wif them lah...i tell u 2day is dhaya/s b'day so we celebrated it along wif jaya's(cos dhaya wanted it like tat she is really very nice lah tat dhaya)...anyways arrti's brother picked us up...u noe e cute one wif e convertible...I GOT 2 RIDE IN HIS CONVERTIBLE!!!...mayb e hood was on but still...well he does nt noe me cos i don go 2 arrti's hse 4 physics tution...then wen rt wen 2 open e gate...he asked our names again...n i tell u....n wen he heard my name..he said tis..."so ur e gal tat ajay likes"...actualli its nt true it actualli e reverse...i was like.."SORRY!"..thnk god rando came 2 my rescue...n said "he likes lots of gals"....i was so freakin embaressed..no MORTIFIED!!!....i didnt noe wher 2 put my face....i mean i think he is cute!!...ppl who u think r cute muz nt noe tis kind of things!!....tis means tat they muz hv toked bout it in arrti's hse...after tution or something...n he muz hv heard it...AIYOH!!!....he doesnt even come 2 HELP n he noes...kadavule!!....i juz pretended tat it was nothing n went on my merry way 2 celebrate e birthdays....so nw u noe i am juz totalli embaressed...

I AM BACK!!!....
you didnt actualli think i was going to delete my blog did u...i am juz 2 stubborn for tat....tis is my blog...mine...i am nt deleting it cos some ppl dont like it i juz changed e add...well anyways i hv been reading my old entries...now i feel so old...its like all e naiveity has gone...um...
funny huh...hw at 1st i did nothing but yet everybody started 2 like bitch bout me...making me mad n desperate(cos my frends wer abandonin me)...then makin me do things tat i did regret...i muz really b e most misunderstood person in coll...hahaha...funny is so not e word...hilarious is more like it...
some ppl ditched me like a sack of potatoes n ran off..."oh i am not used to this"..."we juz freaked out"..."let's juz be normal frends"...like WATEvA!!!...i dont care anymore...mayb i do but if i keep repeating this then i will actulli belief that i didnt care....funny e human mind....so guillible...so foolable...i was tryin so hard 2 hold on...like i was clinging to a tearing rope instead of leting go....if i should fall ther will b some kind of saftey net....if nt then 2 bad i die right....but thankfully ther was a safety net....all my friends that were ther for me...names need not be mentioned again...cos although some hv done more then other for me..i am juz as grateful to all of then...
i hv been dealing quite well nw wif all tat has happened...
well i do hv my coping mechanism...
some ppl make tea i juz dream about someone or something...
u most likely dont even noe he existed but i do...
n it allows me to cope with situations....
although i fell like i hv been betrayed....
n veri bitter i am learning to cope....
yes some of then decided tat since i was nbot like the rest of their frends tat i dont "deserve" their company
well u noe wat i am doin fine wifout them anyways....
at least now i noe who my real frends r....
thing is i noe some of the ppl who hv been bitchin bout me to....
some ppl who wer bitchy to me r suddenly being nice...
but i am juz goin 2 enjoy it while it lasts...
anyways life is lookin up but i am lookin down...well neverthless
i feel rejuvinated...n sha i am callin u soon...

tis is nt my final post on this bog...howvea i doubt you will be seeing this blog again...
i am neva going to explain myself again cos ta's not wat tis blog is for....
i feel most indignifies bout e fact ta i hv 2 explain my own ramblings wen all i wan 2 do is ramble...
tis blog is not for e comfort of ppl 2 pry in2 my private thots or feelings...
tis blog is for onli those who sincereli care bout me....e rest if u juz wanna c hw i'm feeling n wats up wif me then...read my blog...it is and was supp 2 be a place 2 freeli say wat i feel n think wifout any reprecussions ....unfortuateli many ppl did nt get wif e program..so juz wateva...
this blog is for me 2 note down my journey in life...its for me 2 read later n laugh weep n be angry bout wat i thot or felt or thot was right at that time...
it is basicalli an emotional documentation of my past...or some of it anyways...
so tat i dont 4get wat i hv achieved done or thot or felt...
cos my past..like i said b4....is my present...
so get wif e program...or get lost...
2 all e ppl who really care thank u for supporting me..i noe i am most likeli e most annoyin person u ppl hv eva met...2 e ppl who picked me up when i fell down
i am even more grateful....but any help tat u hv done for me has nt bn 4gotten....I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
so i shall name out my frends....
SHA(bestest buddy of all time)...i noe i am e biggest pain ther is but u stuck wif me n i hope tat ther will many more years that u will stick by me....my god i hv 4gotten 2 call u!!!i will call promise....
Alphebetically...
AJAY...thank u so much...i was avoidin u still u helped...u hv no clue hw much u helped pull myself 2gether....though all u said i alreadi knew...i juz needed some1 2 tell it 2 me..
ARRTI...for neva lettin me 4get my manners....n for being there for me...
BEN...u have 2 idea how much i love u...
DHARRINIi....though u rnt always wif me i noe tat u try....r still r my frend tat thot alone is enough for me...
DHAYA...for nt changing anything bout e way u toked 2 me despite wat happened...
LYDIA....i know we rn't tat close but i still remeber tat nite wen i was well intoxicated...it was ur voice i remebered e most...u were always so sincere...i seriousli hope u get well soon...every1 is missing ur presence in coll...includin me...
PRIYANANTHINI...u were ther 2 listen n i am glad that u didnt run...n stading by me thuru tis
RANPREET...u gorgeous thing...always bubbly n bright...u seem 2 brighten up my day
RAYMALA...we met in LAN...though we share fewer conversations...i am so totalli grateful tat u still r frend...
SHARANYA...u i tell u will neva realised hw much u have changed my life...gave me a place outside of A-levels...sometin more different...
SHEELA...oh buddy buddy....u r such a darling...u say so little some times but...u mean so much 2 me...
TAREC...funny hw it took so long 4 me 2 get 2 noe u...but i hope tat u didnt turn ur bck me...
TOY YUEN...am so glad tat u r a frend...i didnt realise tat u wer e 1st person tat knew...
XINNI...oh u r as sweet as honey if nt sweeter...juz love being in ur company....
AND 2 all those ppl who have been even remotely nice 2 me....u hv no idea hw much it helps...
AND 2 all e ex-buddies....i dont hate u...i am still a little mad...n u cant tell tat i cant b...i am different from u...i think differentli i had different experiences...i am different....if tat is y u sudenly decided tat all ur frends hv 2 b of a partcular sterotype n i didnt fit in then 2 bad...dont worry i wont come n destroy ur perfect little world...but if u wish 2 be civil wif me...then of course i will be civil....but i am not that desperate 4 frends...n note...2 forget u exist is nt hard for me...but 2 4get at we wer frends is wat tat was killin me...no matter...if r goin 2 moan on n on bout hw i breeched ur trust then i suggest u keep it 2 urself cos u breeched mine...i hv nothin more else 2 say 2 u ...
AND 2 all e new-found nemisis...if u really have a problem wif me then y dont you tell it 2 my face..i mean if u wanna treat me like i dont exist then i dont care...but try 2 be bitchy....u will incur my wrath...cos i am nt goin 2 tolerate any more crap...n trust me i am nt a pretty sight wen i am mad...

well other then tat i will say tis sorry 2 anyone i missed out anyone's name frm e list...i am so sorry...i either missed it cos i think tat u think i am no longer ur frend....or if u joined e nemisis or ex-buddy group....but if u really r a frend plz forgive me then plz let me know cos all really need now r my frends...

otherwise...bubye...
some will see e site soon others will not...

P.S.Thanks arrti 4 e romance novels they r awesome....

well i am now in a very peaceful frame of mind....neither happy nor sad...juz peaceful...like the breeze after the storm...i had hit rock bottom just 2 days ago and i am glad that afrend reached out and pulled me up....it was unbeleveable...i was in a state of utter despair tat is undescribable
well it is veri simple really for example...imagine u r walking down this very sceneic road wif all these ppl and you are having such a good time you dont see this huge gapping hole rite infront of u n u fall in u r fallin n falling n falling now mean time all these ppl ur wif hv 3 chioces either they leave you and walk on, stand there a wait and shout out encouragements for you 2 climb up or help u get out....well some of them leave u there 2 fall deeper n deeper...it wldnt matter if u didnt really like them or consider them ur friends but wat if u did then hw wld u feel if they let u ther 2 fall deeper n deeper....anyhow...i was miserable i was just so freakin upset i cldnt see anything else excpt my pain...i began 2 miss my family...my best buddies in s;pore who juz get me n neva seem 2 leave me no matter wat shit i get myself in....esp. a certain sum1 whose b'dae i didnt forget...yes shaz i remebered...a bit late i noe...but hey HAPPY B"DAE!!!....sori i'm nt ther 2 celebrate it...but will see u soon k muacks....anyways bck 2 topic...i didnt and neva will hate e ppl who juz desesrted me...i mean i will be mad yah i am pissed...but nw can u hate ppl who u hv such a gd time wif...a person u really respected...or ppl who told u tat they will stand by ur side...
but i am not a beliver of hate....i dont hate anybody not even briiiiinda or her dorky bf...sure i dont like her but hate her neva....i am one of those ppl who is against war n stuff that invovles violence...and ther is violence and war because ther is hate...so why would i hate any1 if i didnt believe in war rite....i oso am a believer of karma wat goes around comes around...y gather bad karma by hating ppl rtite....honestly if u hate for who n wat i really am i really dont care....but if u hate me what i write in my blog them it is my bad karma for incurring hate in ppl n i dont wat u to have bad karma either so i shall clarify wat i said in my previous entry...the who9le flirting thing....totalli bogous..yup its nt true...if u dont want 2 belive me then fine that's ur own problem...i did my job..y i did it will honestli...i am complicated...yes i am...ppl here dont noe my past n i dont noe urs...wat i did or wat happened in s'pore to me u will neva noe...but nevertheless..i hv an alterego....something like that lady in Heroes...but more like beyonce's alter ego...i am a kind of person who loves her perfect environment to be optimum conditions...like n enzyme or bacteria....if e conditions become drastic or very bad then i will denatured....i will become some1 else 2 cope wif the change...i become alert responsible impusive clingy vengeful basically i wont b able 2 think straight....i am like tat...different crisis different personas...so basicalli i am nt the person u see in college everyday i become some1 else inside...it is not necessariliy a bad thing it has helped me befor wen i was in other different crisises....but in this situation it became....like adding fuel to fire....i guess i did mayb in my twisted frame of mind 2 find out nhow amy ppl who said r my frend sdecide tat they dont want 2 b my frend juz cos i happened 2 say tat...neverthe less i found out...now think bout it if i was really such a flirt wldn u like see me surrounded by guys n i wont really like hv any girl frends cos girls dont like girls tat r like tat...so logicall it can b deduced tat i was so juz playing wif ur heads....funny huh...ppl tend 2 misread me in person cos sometimes wen i get 2 excited my manners tend 2 fly out e window...n duer 2 my past my outloom on money is starkly didffeernet from mos ppl i noe...i am nt dirt poor or anyrthing but things have happened to me tat caused such perceptions...i mean if u wan 2 say oh i juz spendt $$$$$$ amt casually like it was nothing then y cant be different n moan tat i spend $$...it neva really mattered if i was wif my s'pre buddies cos they did they same thing we knew tat we didnt mean wat we said even though we were callin each other moron or stupid....that comes 2 another point...i for one neva got along wif any of my frend's bfs....none...may 1 or 2 but most of they i didnt like sure i bitched bout them...but tat neva stopped her from seeing them nor me frm being ther for her wen she dumps them....nw tell me if i am wrong y cant apply the princple wif my guy friends...i didnt become my frend's girlfrend so y shld i become theirs juz cos they happen 2 b male....i am juz like tat i am ur frend bout unless i knew ur girlfend prior 2 u being 2 gether chances r i wont like her unless i get 2 know her...it has been ingrained in my brain for love of god...anyways another thing if u wan 2 go looking in my past enteries by all means go ahead i am so not stopping you but if u r going 2 say oh my wat a bitch cos of my past n not my present although some of my past did cos e present...,n some perception sof ppl change wif time...ppl who i thot were bitches i dont now i may even say their nice..pl who i didnt thibnk wer bitches i may think now...so if u wan 2 judge me for my past then well honestli them i doont care...

hello to all my buddies frends n now bitches n bastards(who r now readin e bog)
(to their great pleasure) tis has officalli been e worst week of tis year...i hv neva felt so mad, miserable and embaressed n lonely eva...i mean seriousli!!!the perfect little sphere of happiness tat i was living in is utterli destroyed....i hv no peace....juz hanging out n being me...well let me start from e beginning...



on thurs last week M stopped tokin 2 me...it was so damn sudden tat i was totalli taken aback...after many attempts in tryin 2 get her 2 tok 2 me....i asked her on mon wat was up....well then i realised wat i was so naive bout....i am goin 2 com erite out n say it....i likeD ajay....word here is LIKED....i mean i was not tat happy wen he got 2gether wif priya...nt cos i wanted him...nw i didnt hv any1 2 flirt wif...yesss ppl i love 2 flirt..(oh i can see e grin on all e gossip mongers faces)....well u wanted dirt so i am givin some.l.i realised tat i hv a new found fame....n i am goin 2 milk it for all its got...well bck 2 e flirtin thing...i dont flirt wif juz any1 mind u....i mean it is nt like he gets uncomfortable or somethin....he is totalli cool bout it....n well now i can do somethin i totalli love 2 flirt...i mean once he is wif priya then i can nt flirt wif him rite...he i sumbody else's guy so tat is y i was nt too happy...anyways bck 2 e worst week of e yr....

well after M tells me bout the current situation she tells me to call n tlk 2 e gang n ajay......i quite aware tat the gang knew bout it but i didnt realise tat they may nt like it that i show...tat much attention 2 ajay....well fine...i call them n tok 2 them excpt arrti cos she like neva answered her fone so she is still on hold i guess.....but e rest i toked 2....after sortin it all out wif them i call bck M....nw M is a very persuasive person...n i always thot highli of her.....so she tells me u hv 2 call ajay....tis i really didnt want 2 do cos well it will make things weird for me....but in e confidence tat she will tok 2 me wen we r bck in coll....but anyways i grit my teeth say a prayer...n call him i hv neva done tis 2 any guy in my entire life....eva n trust me i liked a large no. of guys....well after tokin 2 him e nxt day i go bck 2 coll...n M is still nt tokin 2 me....nw i am like um....she did mention somethin bout bein uncomfortable wif me likin ajay which i still can not understand y....anywyays i was like okay lah she might need some time i will like let her breathe...but then she sends me a msg tat nite n tells me oh we shld nt be hanging out cos she is feelin weird.....she out rite told me tat she did nt wan 2 b frends wif me anymore....i was in short devestaed n veri angry...nw i can nt tok 2 ajay straight or look at him in e eye co si was feelin tat uncomfortable.... i tell u i was so angry at her..i neva wanted ajay 2 noe bout e whloe me likein him thing esp from my mouth...cos i noe tat it will die ourt n i will go bck 2 likin him as a fend juz tat i get 2 flirt wif him...i mean i was so upset i was cryin i dont cry...but like...i mean seriousli....i coll oso i was like goin 2 cry nw cos every1 is avoidin me cos they r afrid 2 b in M's bad books..i hv a feelin tat e whole class noes tat i Liked ajay....but i really dont care...i was juz hurt tat she cld do such a thing....dharrini was like some ppl r like tat...i mean it is nt like i am datin him rite...she is not even tat close 2 ajay....she ike footballers n checks guys out...but it is wrong for me 2 like ajay...i amlike e kind of person who r4eally loves all my frends iwld do close 2 anything n stand by them in any kind of storm if they needed me 2 i wld excpt them for who they r n love them wif all i hv got...i was juz so upset cos wen M said those things they hurt cos it seems 2 me tat she wld not do wat i wld do for her....she even suggested that i shld apologise 2 the gang n ajay.....n i was like 4 WAT!!...tat i am human n a 17 yr old tat i shld hv feeling for ppl who of e opp. sex....i didnt betray them i didnt hang out wif them cos of ajay i hung out wif them cos i loved them all...they made my life perfect....i as always happy wen i was wif them if i was feelin emo i wld like get over it wen i was wld them cos they were so funny n so geniue....but nw i feel like they r like avoidin me....but then so many ppl r like avoidin me....i am becomin so emo n rude n so frustrated i dono wat 2 do wif all this tension...i hv bn ripping paper 2 shredds...so nt like e environmentalist me...i get so angry sometimes in e middle of class i hv 2 scream n i go 2 e toilet expt it is nt really urgent for me i juz needed 2 get away.....i am like so totalli sad okay...i dont really noe wat i am like goin 2 do...even tsi ngar n pei ann r like avoidin me.....

well i hv like news for u i am gettin things frm ppl like oh i heard u dont like lydia n tarec...juz cos they read e blog...again wif the mis reading.....i love them they r like so funny n nice...n really smart....but cos in dont noe them well as e rest of e gang i dont really noe hw 2 tok 2 them cos i cant tok 2 them e way tat the gang toks 2 them....i mean really....i was juz unsure....ppl ppl if wan 2 read this blog i suggest u read in btwn e lines for some things n take surface value 4 others cos i am like dont write for ppl who dont noe me i write for ppl who noe me inside out of outside in...ppl who understand me will realise tat wat i say may or may nt mean wat it means...so get wif e program...or screw u....

oh e best part i didnt evn find joy in e fact tat i was one of the top 6 or 7 in class for bio test...tis is e 1st time i did so well in a bio test eva....n i ddint even feel remoteli happy....the best part i was juz dying 2 get a offer frm imperial ...n guess wat i did....n guess wat i am juz totallui miserable....oh n e icing on e cake.....i wld like 2 say...i actualli for once in along long time look gd in pitures taken by a cmera....n u guessed it ui didnt feel a thing.....so u guessed my emotional situation...so plz.....wioll some1 juz ask my hw i am really feelin b4 i burst.....

but i wld like 2 say b4 i like leave....if i did do anything wrong 2 e gang i am juz sori...i really am i didnt mean it if i was rude in ur face bitchy or even mean 2 u guys i am sori....i really am....i juz dont noe wat else 2 say....i juz give up okay....