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We decided that we shld hv a 'singles' nite out on e nite b4 V'day cos ajay was flyin of 2 Thailand on e V'day evening..or somethin so we had e V'day dinner on V'day eve...we met up at b'sar n wen 2 Madam Kwan's for dinner...it was really fun...we wer e onli one ther makin any kind of noise...cos wwen we all wen silent we cld actualli hear e background music...haha..well anyways...some of them actualli came late...like 1 hour late...we wer so noisy n wer jokin n havin fun again enjoyin each other's company....i was sittin btwn ajay n kamlesh n infront of priya sheela n arrti...n wif priya arrti sheela n ajay together ther was neva a dull moment...well anyways after a veri fun dinner...which onli cost me like 16 RM!!!..haha..well then we decided tat we shld go 2 delicious of dessert apparentli they had e best choclate cake...so we went in 2 groups 1 grp waited for e late comers 2 finish ther dinner....while e rest wen 2 get a table big enough 2 hold all of us....but sincei was in e 2nd grp so wen i arrived all e gd seats had bn taken n i had 2 sit btwn jaya n previna...it was so weird sittin nxt 2 jaya...well anyway ther was nt enough choclate cke left 2 go around so all those who wanted e cake had 2 share...but nop 1 wanted 2 share wif me so i ended up eatin e whole thing...but tat was b'cos i was totalli depressed...n e chocolate cake was my remedy...it helped for a while...anyways we played so really fun games...related 2 valentine's day...Arrti brought 2 cue balls n a bag full of v'day related qns...it was really fun..ther was laughin n jokin...my qn....was somethin like...how much do u really love this person?....well i thot of some1...n e cue ball answered "can not predict now"...every1 was howlin...wen they asked me who i lied n said my mum...then they explained e qn again....they i thot of tat same person n it said..."why not?"...everione wanted 2 noe tat person was..but those who wer wif me in e ethanol escapade...esp arrti looked at me n told me tat i didnt hv 2 say who it was....i was most relieved...well after tat i had we all had 2 leave cos we had coll e nxt day...i arrived home...at like 11pm...the ppl who attended e dinner wer....aarti, priya, ajay, sheela, priyada, divya, daya, rando, rayamala, previna, tarec, kamalesh n jaya lydia mum's b'dae was on tat day so she cld nt come join us....my make up was done by sharanya..it wa totalli awesome...n at e dinner ther was a 'lucky draw' wherby e winner gets 2 g0o on a date wif ajay..well nt a real date...but ther will be flowers chocolates n lunch..i am truli pathetic in e sense i am super desperate 2 hv a v'day related memory of v'day u c...as in i wan some1 2 give me flowers n choclates n take me out for lunch by some1 special...be it my bf or my secert love or juz a frend....raymala won e date...but 'stood' him out on V'day cos she had classes...hahaha...well anyways..on V'day i had lunch wif my classmates...then wen 2 meet my buds at mid vallley wif priyada...but thruout e taxi ride i onli succeded in pissin her off...it was totalli unintentional...but wateva...well we juz hung out in e mall...us single ppl....well anyways bout lydia n tarec....i donno sum hw i really wish cld b frends..but i always seem 2 hold bck around them...i unintentionalli ignore them..totalli unintentional...but sometimes i really wan 2 say somethin 2 them but i hold back n shut up....i donno y....guess i hv issues...i was totalli upset tat day i even teared on e eve of v'day... i do not tear...cos i realised tat tis person who i had fallen in love wif...i can neva have...cos tat e way e situation is...but i will get thru tis juz like hw i get thru everyother guy...well technicalli i was neva over justin...but he is an exception......

well after tat escapade wif ethanol...i fell sick on e monday i woke up..i swallowed e panadol n uddled out of the door like a happy camper....cos nothin was gonna stop me from havin fun...i met e gang(me priya arrti rando sheela lydia xinnin(joycelyn) divya ajay toy yuen n tarec...tarec's older sis gave me a lift 2 Kl sentral...i met e gang outside e McD's...we bundled into e bus n went on our way...but b4 leavin ajay got scolded from an uncle...n ended up hviin 2 sit next 2 him..hahaha...well ride up muz hv bn fun cos everi1 muz be laughin bout e things tat happened at e sleepover BUT i fell asleep in e bus cos i was sick..well wen we arrived at e cable car it was super misty...i hv no idea hw i bus driver cld see but thnk god we arrived ther...well then we bundled in2 e cable cars seperated in2 two groups....it was so freakin cold in gentin it muz hv bn like 16 degrees in ther...n since i lost my fave jacket which wld hv bn warmer 2 b in...i was in a not so good jacket...well we wen on bunch of rides...but priya didnt go on any of the thrill rides...not even in e karts....n onli rode in one or 2 of the rides....i didnt take some of the rides...includin e solero shots....cos i was nt feelin tat well...i actualli wanted 2 go on e solero shots but didnt in e end....e lunch was sucky...even though it was kenny rogers...everythin was watery n bland...basically despite lots of the rides being closed..it was a fun time...n it was a day of enjoyin each other's company...i got alot closer 2 some ppl in e group who i didnt noe veri well like xinin n toy yuen lydia n tarec even...howeva i dont noe if my realationship wif them is gettin better or worse...(blog bout tat later)...anyways e nxt day i wen 2 back 2 singapore....wif my cuz shakeena...it was fun takin her shoppin hn did so fruitful shoppin myself...as in i got some thiongs tat i hv bn dyin 2 get....my first perfume...my first sunglasses...thin hair gel thing...n some other things...well blog bout valentines day later....

this will be e mother of all posts cos i hv like tons 2 say/write i mean it has been almost a mnth since i like blogged....n like tons of stuff has happened....like loads.....well e exams like totally sucked 2 e max...they were absoluteli horrible...throughli dreadful...anyways as soon as e exams finished...well on tat day we wen 2 mid valley cos we felt like it...n i lost my fave jacket ther..i was totalli miserable bout it cos i really loved tat jacket....anyways then on e friday we stayed over at priyada's hse...well 2 get 2 her place was such a big affair...i mean i was supp 2 meet ajay n toy yuan at mid valley n go from ther....but they stopped by 2 pick me up...they tried 2 call me but i diint hv my hp at tat time...but they shld hv rang e bell rite....so wen i see e numerous missed calls on my fone....i call him onli 2 get yelled at...but they wer nice enough 2 come back n pick me up....we then wen 2 mid vally 2 do some last minute shoppin then we left 2 pick up rando then wen 2 pick up tarik n Zingee(toy yuen's gal) n finally we wer on our way 2 priyada's hse then arrti calls 2 say tat she 4got e grill (4 e bbq) so we go all e way 2 her hse n get e grill...then we lost our way several times b4 findin her hse....we arrived e party started...well they bbq some food n then e rest we brought....we ate n laughed n joked...n wer basically havin fun....then we rather lydia priya tarik n ajay came up wif an elaborate plan 2 get us 2 e The Curve 2 catch a movie....we then changed and or freshened up....at tis point divya joined us....anyways i was in e 2nd batch 2 leave apartment...i wen wif arrti n sheela in her parents car...we met up wif e 1st group priya lydia n tarik who wen 2 drop rando home...n toy yuen 2 get his car...then we wen 4 e midnight movie at Blood Diamond...it was an interesting movie...but arrti is terrified of violence....n tat movie was full of it...then after tat we wen back 2 e apartment...now ther is no adult supervision....so we all decided 2 drink...we had wiskey n tequila shots....i had 2 cups of wiskey mix wif coke....n 3 shots of tequila....i was drunk in 20mins after my 3rd shot....i was drunk not wasted....i was basically talkin alot....alot of things...things tat i didint wan ppl 2 noe...i was cryin mosli i guess....i remeber lydia arrti priyanan priyada joycelyn n tarik tokin 2 me at some point or another but wat exactli wer they tryin 2 say i cant realy remeber...but i rember lydia's voice e most...i was tryin 2 get sober by washin my face...but onli succeed in controllin myself after e 3rd wash....i rember kickin ajay really hard....lyin next 2 tarik...askin lydia forgiveness...n sayin some really embaressin stuff....oh i oso rember sheela throwin water on me....i had less then 2 hours sleep tat night....well tat night ajay n sheela wer totally wasted...me n toy yuen wer drunk...tarik bein e onli 1 who drank but remain completeli somber e whole time...priyada n arrti did not drink....n divya priyanan joyclyn n lydia gettin high....well it was e mos revealin night of my life....luckily i managed 2 save some of my secerts from being exposed....some really dark secerts....anyways i am glad i got drunk in their company n no one else's....i am like totalli grateful that they r bein discrete bout wat i said n oso tease me bout e small stuff....well anyways i came home on e sat afternoon n slept till evenin....n then woke up 2 hv dinner then slept again.....then on monday minnal(tarik's older sis) picked me up n took us 2 KL central wer we met e rest of e gang we went on board e bus 2 go genting....well i shall stop here 4 now....n continue tmr...