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Saturday, July 01, 2006
Yesterday was a whole lot of chance encounters....i mean really.....well firstli at e Orchard MRT i was waitin for my frend....n tis llady walks up 2 me n says,"excuse me.i am from a modellin agency. i think tat u hv e looks 2 b a model." she gave a me a card n asked for my number n name....i gave them 2 her....i at first felt like laughin....i seriousli thot it was some joke n i was on camera or somethin...then i looked at her card n realised tat tis muz b a new company sooo....they r juz randomly lookin for ppl.....irregardless wat they really look like....i mean models r like stick thin..i am so not lah..i am like totalli bottom heavy....n i juz cant b like tat...but anyways tis is e weird thing...yesterday i wen out wif sha n her frends for e third time....i guess i finally opened up 2 them...it takes a long time for me 2 warm up 2 ppl...cos i am afraid tat they will reject me or nt like me for who i am or somethin u noe....or worse tat they will backstabb or ditch me....anyways i finally opened up 2 them they r like totalli fun....i am like really glad for ha she is finally happy wif where she is...i noe tat these ppl wont stab her in e back or hurt her feelings like someppl....anyways they were doing this whole vogue thing....it was like really fun...Zee was like Jay Bin Samon....Alif was like you noe the page layout managers where they chose location n look....sha was everywhere...I absoluteli love SAM's hair.....n i love how fair sharon is..she is like e real porcelen..tat all the locals wish they were....but aarti had 2 leave b4 we cld do anythin....n dean did nt come tat day cos he was sick...kylie was like a total vogue babe...u noe any guy wld consider himself very licky 2 b in e presence of 7 beautiful babes....so Alif was really lucky...hahaha....but then again mayb nt.....considerin who he is.....anyways it is alot of fun...i love posin n being shot..i noe vain..BUT i hate lookin at myself in e shot......so anyways yesterday i was thinkin how fun it wld b 2 b a model...but of course all i cld think of was hw i so did nt look like a model......or even close...i kept comparin myself wif....*gasp*...kohila.....i noe i noe.....but every time i look at her i get so envious....i juz met her..she has put on weight n in a gd way..she is no longer stick thin...still veri thin...but a nicer thin....u noe...so wen i was thinkin tis onli...this lady pops up n asks me such a thing.....anyways.....after tat..i met a frend..i had finally moved on and am now able 2 look beyond her new found sex life.....anyways.....i after tat...i wen for tis drama...as i was approachin e esplanade i had this weird feelin....i was goin 2 see Raaj....yes i noe weird....n it is not e parnoid feelin....it is juz a feelin.....so as was wonderin around lookin for my mum...tis lady approachs me n says.."excuse me,ur arunan(my bro)'s sister rite?" i recognised her...she was e lady who organised e India trip...i casualli looked over her shouldert...at first i did nt see him..but after a while from e corner of my eye i saw he..i made a 2 more glances in a period of 2 mins 2 be sure....n i was rite....he looked exactli e same expt he has a ADDIDAS JACKET!!!!...not fair!!!!.....well anyways....swear he saw me...n i cld vagueli see him turn his back against me.....i let as soon as possible....n waited for my mum....it turned out tat she is nt comin onli my bro n sis....i was now wearin my half jacket.....new one......my family arrived late...but nt too late...we managed 2 go in at the 10min mark..that is set for those who come no later than 10 mins.....it was pitch dark...i cld not see much..eyes still adjustin...my sis walked up e asile...n i followed then i realised that she walked 2 far in front....wen i wen 2 call her i heard him say somethin like....i told u to sit in front....or somethin like i wanted 2 sit outside.....but i am nt sure.....i realised tat my row was juz infront of his.....so i moved as far in as possible...i swear i felt he was lookin in my direction sometimes durin e show....after e show i juz wanted 2 get up n run out ...but e exits were jammed....i hv 2 go nw will tell u later