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Friday, June 23, 2006
This week is GREAT!!!!...well malay classes hv started..i luv my malay teacher..or shall i say cikgu...he is like super super nice....n he is super good....i hv learnt quite a bit..all i hv 2 do nw is remeber it...hahahaha...ha....well anyways...on monday i wen 2 meet anu...we caught up with each other...she hasnt changed much....well hw can she is allready too wise for her age...i noe inoe i makin her sound old...but she really is.....on tuesday wen 2 see e movie Cars...i am not really sure which is my fave...but i really like Luigi and Guido....the ferrari lovers....n Sally cos she is a porshe....Filmore and mater r really funny.... 
Well on wednesday...i wen out wif my mum juz 2 go look see e sale....didnt really buy anythin...juz lingerie...i can neva hv enough lingerie...anyways...aftertat on thurs...i wen 2 meet sha...n her frends...they r all really cool....i don really think they liked me much cos...u noe hw i am such a geek, freak, pain..cos u noe i am actualli meetin them 4 e 2nd time in e same mnth...so they muz think i am some kind of loser who has no other frends...n u noe i hv 2 come n crash their 'chill' time....well i was wearin green....i wasnt really wearin it cos i was bein all flirty...i was wearin cos i wanted 2 see his reaction...i noe his position on females....so ther is nothin i can do to change tat....but like i thot he wld..like i think wat many guys wld do....to me anyways...he kinda was actin a bit ..umm...distant...well i cant really blame him...all guys feel werid around me so u noe it was no real surprise....anyways let's not go ther..k....then on e same day after meetin them for lunch i wen 2 meet nazeeya....here r e neoprints.....i look really sexy in this 2 shots
....unoe...then i came home..i did tis scan tat shows ur "health"....it is really complicated....n it has somethin 2 do wif carotids...anyways...my reading...was average...i doo live in m'asia...anyways....after tat we wen out 4 dinner...n u will neva belief it but...my mum actuali bought me a iPOD VIDEO!!!!!.....can u belief it...she told me she was buyin 4 me a nano....so i told her i wanted it in black....but it turns out she actuali got me a iPOD Video...it was supp 2 b for e o'levels..i was supp 2 get a iPod video if i got less then 10 pts...i got 13 pts..nt includin CCA.....so u noe i feel like i didnt deserve it..n i always feel like i don deserve stuff esp. wen it is expensive....i don noe y..i feel like i am nt worth all the money n effort...basicalli i feel worthless alot...like Oprah says...e Not Enough Syndrome....esp wen i go out wif my frends...i worry alot bout my family's finacial status now tat i am livin in m'asia...u noe edu is nt cheap...n Uni esp...n everi time they spend cos i wan somethin... i feel like i am being selfish..n self-centred....i don noe lah..i juz feel like if i packed up n left 2 do work or 2 study on my own expense..like takin u a loan or somethin..it will be a whole lot better 4 my dad..n family....i don noe lah....well..yup....tat's me...today is friday so i am takin a breather....