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Sunday, June 18, 2006
no it is not as explict as u think..i am sane n still a virgin but....i hv lost IT...i am nt really sure wat it is but wen i found of tat one of my best frend..has lost her virginity...nt tat i am surprised..2 a guy she bareli noes for bout a mnth...i suddenly feel different..i don noe why but suddenly..i done feel so young..i feel old...well nt old-granny old..juz older...u noe...like i hv finally lost all my naiveness...i mean i am nt naive..i noe stuff...lotsa stuff bout lotsa things..but...u noe like i am nt a girl anymore...not yet a woman...wait tat line juz sounded like tat britney song...eeeewwww...eek...anyways...i feel weird..i guess i kept thinkin tat as long as all of us(u noe my best frends...) saved ourselves...we r still young we hv nt yet crossed in2 e adult world...u noe...but rite now..i feel like i juz put my toes across tat line tat seperates...the non-adult world 2 e adult world...i don noe..i juz feel weird..i supp i am makin a big deal out of nothin..rite....y muz i b so dramatic...mayb i am juz veri lame...or childish..i don noe..sigh..lah...u noe wen she told me tat she lost it...i was nt surprised or u noe shocked...but wen she said she did nt use protection i felt like smakin her across e face..i mean wat was she thinkin...juz cos he did not 'spray' inside her does not mean tat she cant get pregnant...wat e point of all e sex ed wen no 1 is payin attention..so she might nt get pregnent...u noe cause her period is pretty irregular..she can still get STDs...wateva lah..n e best part..she claimed tat she was 'possessed'..i seriousli almost ran over 2 yher hse juz 2 kick her in e ass...POSSESSED!!!..that is so LAME!!..u r nt possessed if u can move 4om e playgrd 2 e blks wen things r gettin hot n heavy...u had e time 4 e walk/run 4om e playgrd 2 e blks 2 decide if u really wanted 2 do it or nt...GOD!!!...i actualli told her tat..but in a less fierce tone..i mean e 1st time is supp 2 b special u noe..not some ..some hit n run kinda thing...well wateva...i guess all e other guys who wer tryin 2 get in her pants r hittin their heads against the wall...n tat she will neva learn...