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we graduated last fridai...
we wen 2 sch..i took some pics in e classroom b4...
goin 2 e hall..wher there were 2 borin speeches..one by the Boo...
e other by e special guest....then eacxh class wen up n said their speeches..
our class muz hv bn e onli class wif smilez all around....
then ther was certs n awards given out ...
then we got our "fragile" gift..a porcelin mug...boring....
then we wen down for lunch.. i ate alot...
had like 4 fruit tarts...the green coconut kueh ball thing...mee...etc
lots of punch...them took more pics....
then we wen 2 e NYJC open hse...it was a realli nice JC...
well now let's get 2 e sloppy part...the whole thankin n missin thing....
well it is a super long list......but basicalli i am gonna miss everi1 tat has
made my life better or brighter or hv touched or moved mi or any1 who
is in any of my classes....
present or former...
okay i am juz lazy 2 type them out
so juz check out tis webpage it has everi1..in it....smilex sori....
http://loshikoshi.blogs.friendster.com

i muz be the Queen of Patheticness....so i decided tat i shld give lessons..
Lesson 1..
like a guy who is way to old for you..or some1 wher ther can b no
advancements due to e nature of ur workin relationship...
then muse over y he neva considered u....
after tat dream n dream bout a future 2gether until...
u wake up n realise tat ther is absoluteli no way in heaven or
earth tat anythin is gonna happen...then
like some1 else who also is unattainable....
....

well nw tat lesson is over....
the 9 days of bein vegetarian is over!!!...
actuali it does nt make tat big a diff 2 me as long as i can eat...
it is amazin hw my muslims frends can go wifout food or even
water..considerin hw hot e days get here on s'pore...
anyways i don hv 2 muse over wheather somethin has egg or nt
wen i go out 2 eat or eat at sch....my sch is so lame!!...
they don hv a vegetarian store 4 all e vegetarians in sch u noe..
thnk gdness i am leavin...
well yesterdai was vejaya dasumi..so i wen 2 my dance teacher's
hse...u noe 2 pay homeage...
well after tat i had 2 rush 2 sch 2 go 4 bio lessons...
i was like super sleepy..drank coffee but occasionalli ther was a sudden
urge 2 drop my head on e table n sleep...sighness...
muz get used 2 long nights....
well in class ine mornin....2dai was e4 last offical day of sch 4 mi...
we had eng..ms james did nt come 2 sch so naturalli ther was a relief teacher...
he looked like a chinese cartoon character...quite cute lah..n put him in a class
full of gals (ther r onli 5 boys in my class..35 galz...) we had a whole lots of gigglin
n laughin 4 various reasons...furthermore mr T juz had 2 come 2 class so the
class broke in2 a fit of laughter..considerin...nana who was crazy bout mr T n
wld hv adored the relief teacher was nt ther neither was kat..i think they both
feel a little more than admiration 4 them....
well talkin bout admiration i saw Cross 2day...we was doin e usual thing n y?!
Y does he hv 2 be so damn clever or give tat perception of intelligence further than
any of us wen he was our age....tis is juz sadness okay....n does he hv 2 b tis kind of
cheeky kind of cuteness bout him....DAMN!!!....i wish tis feelin wld go away...they
r irritatin....
well anyway our class bein suai...we had 2 periods of SS!!! on our last dai..sadness...
well the gang swapped momentums...anu gave mi a card i gave kohila a card kohila
gave sha a card n sha gave anu a card...i liked anu's card..it was realli sweet...
sha's gave anu a realli cool card...i gave kohila a realli nice one 2..but kohila
gave sha a disappointin card...well tat is so her i supp..but she did nt even come
2 sch e dai b4..at least put in a bit more4 effort lah....well i hv a ton of work 2 get to
so cya....

*DAMN those intelligent and/or nice guys....they neva look my way*

tis is unbelieveable!!!...e Os r comin round e corner n i wen 2 e body shop sale!!
i mean seriousli...wat was i thinkin!!!...i juz wanted 2 get my soap at a cheaper
price...i onli use body shop soap cos it smells nice n is an environmentalli friendli
empire....so anyway i bought like 5 different bottles of soap of varyin prices...
n oso lip balm, perfume n eye makeup remover....i was supp 2 buy mascara but
e cashier 4got 2 cash it in...sadness lah...well nvm...durin e great malaysian sale..
there will a sale at body shop there n oso esprit..so i can get a new bottle of eyeliner...
n masscara.....um mayb lip gloss 2....n oso powder....n tat shampoo for dry hair...
anyways tat is still like 2 months away...n e Os r sooner!!.....
oh god there is so much wor5k 2 do...somehow i hv 2 go 2 sch in order 2 feel like studyin...
wat am i gonna do!!!..there is so much homework!!!....sighness lah....
god!!!!..n despite all tis all...not all maybe alot....of the time is spent
thinkin bout e last bus ride...i am like tis super sad cos...i mean it is no longer tis
crush feelin anymore..i don blush like crazy..i juz feel like smiley..wateva lah...
he is like way up there somewhere..i mean seriousli if he has gone wif a babe
who is such a bitch...hw will i compare...i keep givin tis innocent dorky persona
wen i am in sch..god if onli they knew wat i am capable of...i can be as bad as
nitha if i wanted 2 b...but i choose nt 2...cos i tink e respect of my frends is worth more
then some male attention...i am like tis caged tiger..which i let loose unintentionalli...
around e wrong company...sometimes i juz don feel like bein tis innocent gal....
sighs...well it is 2 late 2 change tat image...or i will juz look like tis poser or worse...
some flirt...yuck...i don need to add hypocritic 2 e list of words tat descibe mi...
well wateva....better go n do some real work....
sighs...


*ppl can change if they r given e time...then u dont they give mi e chance*

i am like totalli disgusted wif myself...i feel like i shld wash my mouth
wif soap....i cant belief i did tat in august!!!....disgustin...i cant belief
i even wen 4 such an jackass...eewwww....yuck yuck....
i am like tot5alli disappointed wif myself u noe tat...sch is like
gonna end nxt week 4 mi...it will b my last dai in beatty sec...
although i am glad to go i am still sad lah...
lots of reasons....
my frends...all thoses ppl who r kind enough nt 2 ignore mi..
my teachers...quite a few i admire n luv...
my crushes n ex-crushes....oh hw can i 4get tat embarressin red-cheeks
moments it resulted in...
myenemies...hey they made sch more versitile...
the scandals....juz so scandalous!!...
the gossip..oh so juiciy...
the homeroom sys....movin bout allows u 2 bump in2 ur frends 4om other classes...
T...will cos it will b like a love tat neva happened...or a chance i neva took
n mos of all my bez frendz all bein in e same sch....
it will neva b e same..yea sure we will keep in touch...but all the similerities of our lives...
will no longer exists...no more bitchin bout e sch or teachers or the ppl in sch...
no more waitin 4 each other..no more plannin 2 meet at bus stops 2 go 2 lessons 2gether...
i am gonna miss all that....

well the results are out and there is still much to be desired....
i defineteli did better over all then i expected...which is gd...
but i sunk in alot of subjects....which i shall demonstrate...
here are the results...
ENG:21/30(letter) 22/30(compo) 33/40(oral) 24/50(compre)
after calculatn.....64.3!!!!....hence a B4...sadness!!!
Combine Humanities:28.5/50(Geog) 38/50(SS!!!!)
after calculation....67!!!.. B3...unbelieveable!!!....SS....
E-Maths:70/80(paper1) 71/100(paper2)
after calculatn....79...A1....disappointin...alot of ppl got 80 n above...
A-Maths: 54/80(paper1) 56/80(paper2)
after calculatn:...66...B3..better then mid-yr...
Physics: 31/40(paper1) 52/80(paper2) 27/30(practical)
After calculation:...72.5!!!!!..A2!!!..Whooo!!!!..neva B4 for physics....
Chemistry:
After calculatn:...62.5....B4...disappointed...deproved....
Bio:28/40(paper1) 45/80(paper2) 33/40(practical)
After calculatn:...65...B3...sadness...deproved...by 3 grades!!!

L1R5:..16!!!!...better then i expected..but wher 2 go wif such a weird number of pts?...
well nw tat tat is taken care of lets' get down 2 more pressin issues...i wen 2 the Vasantham
Star show....it was a Utter SADNESS!!!..well cos Shabir won....hw sad is tat!!!!
i absoluteli destest him...he is a gd performer...but nothin more cos he is ugly...n cant sing...
hweva....mohan on e other hand...*sigh*...wat a bod...god...n a nice ass..plus nt a bad voice...
girls shld be worshippin him nt tat thinks so great of himself smug person...wat onli...
s'pore indian gals got bad taste..i saw it time n time again wif my bez frean as well as
at e show...anyways..well yea...u get e hint..pity...he is like at least 24 or somethin...
well i don mind...u noe my taste has changed quite a bit from likin Maats...to lookin
at intellect and buff and oso personality...i am such a sucker for nice guys it is unbelievable...
Look at T..i hv liked him for 6 mnths n he noes nothin of it...even wen i had a bf...
onli cos he is such a nice guy...sometimes i wish he knew so tat it will b like 1 of
thoses luv stories wher he will like mi back....but i can onli dream on...
well then ther is Cross..i don wan 2 say his name n no 1 will eva noe bout him...
it is embaressin...he is okay lookin..i supp but he is clever..which is such a turn on...
n oso cos he has a nice butt..haha..well i think it is juz admiratn 4 him...
which i may hv mistook 4 likin him..n besides is it evben possible to like 2 ppl
at once...but then again these insane daydreams of kissin him n e insane desire
to inpress him is all consumin..i like to get his attention on me...but i don
wan 2 make it 2 obvious cos nothin will happen..he is a bit 2 old and clever
to possibleli even consider mi...hmmm....somemore i don noe if i shld sai it but wateva...
i am a scorpio....so i tend to be a bit more sensual...2 put it mildli....
i shld stop readin those darn romance novels but...i am addicted...
i luv e possibility tat ther will luv out ther 4 mi .... anyways i hv fantasies...
yes as embaressin as tat is i do...muz b e medis n e bks...but it does nt
matter cos i hv them..n e weird thing is tat i like them n e feelin tat some1 out
ther is wauitin 4 mi is like entrallin...well wateva ....
gdness i feel like i need a bf...don ask y...mayb cos i wan 2 flirt real bad...
but i don wan to spoil my reputation or look like a slut or turn ppl off...
but i need some attention...any kind esp. 4om Cross n T....gOd!!!....


*is it possible to like 2 ppl at e same time even though u noe tat it will neva go beyond tat*