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Sunday, August 14, 2005
i am blogging for fun todai....i still havent finished my hwk..or started studyin...
i am goin to a place far away far too often these days....
n it is gettin more intense as in i actuali feel like i am in tat place...
which is werid cos i cant usuali do tat...i think i am goin thru too much emotional stress...
which i put myself thru cos i worry too much about everythin...
n on top of that small mundane things r often blown up in my head n they become big issuses....
i cant stop thinkin bout him...which is annoyin mi to pieces...
n too top it all off i have put on weight cos i hv bn excessively eatin....
i am a classic case of a sad case...pathetic even....
i seriousli need to reorganise my life.....
n learn not to sweat the small stuff...
n..n...goodness i am so have to get tis off my chest
..okay tis has bn buggin mi since yesterdai.....
Well nazeeya came over yesterdai we were on the comp...
surfin the net n basicalli juz chillin n havin fun....
after tat she invites mi over to her hse...since my mum is in malaysia...
i asked my dad who cant say no to let mi go n he did...
so at her hse we looked at her uncle's weddin photos..
her uncle is quite gd-lookin..she looks alot like him...alot...
n then well we wen to her msn...as usual she was goofin around n ..
tis guy wat's his name...katrikesh or somethin...it is a weird name...
no offence...well he called her hp n we talked..honestly...he
sounded exactly like some1 i noe but i don who...it was veri
ang mohish...he hates tamil n so do i...but tat is besides the pt...
for some bizzare reason i hv a thing for guys wif ang mohish voice...
don ask mi y...but look at justin...n him...they don sound indian now do they....
well...so anyways...cos his ang mohish soundin voice...i think i was too nice...
u noe i sounded um...interested...which i am nt..nt in tat way...
but then after tat i kinda feelin guilty bout it..i noe lame...
well thankfuli...he did not call or msg again...even though
nazeeya gave him mi no. ...well he is a nice guy but it will juz make
mi feel more guilty..i am juz pathetic...actuali i shld nt feel guilty
cos if i give him e liberti to do wat he wans..as long as he does nt cheat....
then y cant i rite...i mean seriousli...it shld b both ways....
oh wait.. i tink i noe y i am guilty...it was nt cos of tokin to the guy...
it is cos i sounded like i was flirtin..which i hope i did nt....
well anyways he did nt call or msg..muz be cos of wat i asked...
u noe about his exes..n stuff kinda turns a guy off..
n not in that kind of way but in a more platonic way...
um...feels better....
WAT ONLI!!!!
i am SO sweatin the small stuff...
y cant i juz stop being so damn paranoid....
nvm.....well tat's it..i tink...