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Thursday, August 11, 2005
Alot has happened since monday...let us start from the 9thit was Singapore's National Dai...all was not fun and games...
it was okay i supp....nothin much happened....juz missed him
like crazi n then the sufforcatin sense of loss overcame me
a few times...but otherwise it was okay...
Then it was the 10th...the day after..we went to see...
Charlie and The Chocolate Factory...wen the movie ended...
i felt the same senation like as if askin myself y all the gd things
in life end so fast....managed to reach him...sms 4om mi
brother's fone...he says he misses mi..he loves mi n the situation...
his dad (the bastard....sori...cant help it) has bugged the hse fone..
picks him up after sch...n oso does nt allow him to go on msn...
n he oso checks his hand fone....wen he msged mi tat...i cld nt
reply as his dad had reached home...fuuk it okay....but somehw
after gettin tat msg...i feel a whole lot better...i guess i juz did nt
wan to be kept in the dark....i juz wanted to noe if there was a present
for us....n if i eva get in contact wif him tis is wat i am gonna sai....
look i love u n miss u so much u hv no idea...but i think it is better we took
a break as in we open up the relationship..so that it is no longer serious...
so tat u r no longer obliged to contact mi if u cant n dont wan to..
n tis will oso keep u out of trouble for some time...u n i r in a veri unstable
period in our lives, wat wif my olevels n ur years of bad luck startin,i think
that we should lie low...n in the mths to come n wen ur dad finalli lets u live
ur life and if u find some1 else then it is okay...juz let mi noe k..we can always
b frends...n if u wan to continue from where we stopped then i will b waitin
here for always...k...n no matter wat i will always b here for u if u need mi...
well hope i remeber all of that...n god i miss him loads...
That leves with 2 dai I had my english olevels todai oral...stupid nonsense...
wat onli passage was abiut catering n careers n then the pic was bout some
training maid agency....then there was the conversation topics...wat onli...
wat course u wan to take in uni...r so jobs suited for some ppl...do u noe
any1 wif an unusual job...wat makes a person decide wat job he4 would take...
all that kind of shit.... n even though i was
feelin okay todai wen i wen past the boys toilet...i smelt tat scent..god my eyes
actuali stung for like 3 seconds before i was back to normal....it was the addidas
perfume...n i was from the toilet all the mutts use....like i said fuuk it....even
the songs on the radio give that senation but milder....fuuk it all....