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Today i got back the results for the MT O'level results...i got a B3
it is okay ....a B3...not great but okay...i am not great in tamil
anyways...hopin for an A2 but a B3 is okay...cos i am so not
repeatin the exam...well Anu n Kohila got an A1...which i noe
they would get cos they r juz so damn gd in tamil...
well now i hv to juz work hard for mi other subjects...n get 6 pts..
Well now that that is said and done...let mi move on to more
pressin matters...today i call him 4 times...let mi recount each time.......
Call 1
Wen i first called him i was hopin he wld nt pick up...but he did n tis is how it went...
"Hello".him
"hello"..mi
"Hello"..him
"Hello"..mi
"Hello"..him..now i was peeved...
"Yes"...mi
"Who is this?" him..I was shocked n upset tat he may hv 4gotten mi...n so fast to...
..after tis pt i am not sure wat exactly he was saying or who he was talkin to..
but he sounded mad n he said the F-word...before...
"I'll call u back" and putting down the fone....i was veri upset...i was
actuali gonna cry...i mean wat a bastard i wen thru all tat trouble
to call him n he does tis i was determined neva to call him again....
he always says he will call mi back but neva does...wat a liar...i
then call Kohila n tell her wat happened..i was determined neva to talk to
him a again but she convinced mi to call again....so i do wen i reach the
Yio Chu Kang Station...
Call 2
"Hello"..him
"hello"..mi
"hello"..him
"hello"..mi
"oh hey,sori bout that i was in a fight.."..i was like wat onli does tis guy eva
not get in trouble...n was about to nag him to death...but all i said was...
"Oh.."..pathetic....
"yea,my dad is taking a day of to take the car to the workshop, the car is
broken. todai is the onli dai my dad let mi use the train...i hv to be home by
three...he always tells mi to come home 15 mins faster than possible..so i
have to run home..n i cant stop along the way.." ...him..i am not stupid..i
noe that he n i cant meet 4 a long time...a veri long time...so was naturali
aware tat he cld nt meet to dai so i cut him off half way ....
"yeah i know"..mi
"so wat r u doing?"..he always asks mi tis qn...but onli recently he was actuali
interested in knowin the answer...
I tell himmthat i am goin for tution n that i am callin from a payphone...
"my dad knows your number u noe..."...him..
"I use a prepaid so he wont be able to trace it to mi n it is under my mum's name"
"Actuali if the number is still in use then he can..but he wont call u it is juz to c if u call mi or if i call u"
Then there is a guy wif a deep voice sayin somethin i don care to listen....
i was gatherin the courage to talk to him bout..us..
"that's my frend.." ...him..he says something along the line of is my girlfrend or somethin and laughs...
and juz wen i open my mouth to sai somethin somethin along the lines to refer
to us the line goes dead the 10 cents has alreadi bn used up...i was like FUUK...
i wen to look for change n called him again..tis time no one picks up...
Call3
now i walk to my tution teacher's hse..and use the fone to make
my final attempt....
"hello"...tis time it was not him...it was is frend..i hope..
"Hello"..mi..i was decidein or not if i wan to trust tis voice...
"yes"..the voice says...i take a risk...
"May i plz speak to *him"...*him is not the guy's real name....
"he is busy.."i was like with wat...wat is goin on here....
"oh okay then.."is all i cld muster n put down the fone without a word...
I was confused was it the same guy who on msn informed mi of him's
situation....i call kohila again....she tells mi to give it another shot...
so i do.....
Call4
tis was the call i wished i neva made.....
"Hello"..him
"hello"..mi...
"my dad's here" he hisses in a panic...
"I will call u back"..tis was the last time he says that to mi....i hate those
words they r an empty promise....i juz hates he wen he lets mi that...
cos he is lying wen he says tat...n it makes me feel all hopeful for no reason...
n then wen i realsie that he is not gonna call i get disappointed n sad ...n i was
nt gonna