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this blog is about my life through my eyes
any feelings hurt or spirt crushed will not be
not be held against the mangement of this blog(meaning me)
if you wish you voice out any unhappiness due to the blog
or otherwise look out for my tagboard where you can voice
your opinion about the blog and/or it's contents
any personal unsatisfactions about me will be taken up
in my presence to my face
entries in this blog are how i feel at that moment in time
and not my everyday presence of mind
feelings and opinions change so do not hold me accountable
for any kind of misinterpretation of the blog

i stand here pondering now...thinking...
is there such a thing as love...or is it over rated...
can a man love a woman instead of being infactuated with her...
a mother's love is universal...
loving thy brother n sister is expecpected...
n loving thy neighbour is in the bible....
wat about a love shared btween to ppl of the opposite sex...n same sex for some cases..
is it possible at such a young age that such a thing called love exists...
n tat it is not the hormones or the confusion...
i was getting onto the train that was to take mi to a place of dreams...
but before i leave...he whispers in my ear...
i love u n i mean it for the first time...
the train whistles..n the conductor waves his flag...
i hear nothing as i stand there...the land of dreams was waitin for mi...
but his words trouble mi... but i get onto the train n say nothing in return...
only to return in the morning...
today he speaks nothin to mi ....
silence builds a wall between us ...
i should have said somethin...but i did not wan to fall into the hole...
i did not want to belief that i was fallin for him...
but the more i look at it the more i realise...how much i miss him...
but i ask myself again and again...
is it possible for mi to fall in love at such a young age..

I have just made a blog n my life is a mess.
twisted feelings and living on the edge...
takes alot out of mi...
a free sprit i once wished to be but so far it i had
become nothing more than a caged bird...
on life's mission..
i failed to c the birds n the trees...
looked ahead of mi n saw a road tat was barren n ran down the middle of the desert...
my heart sank as the thot of being alone foreva loomed over..
i lost hope in ever findin you n resigned to my fate...
but on an unexpected travel to the incredible land i saw u...
u caught my eye...
i dreamed tat u would look my way but lost hope again...
the thot of neva havin u killed my love to travel...
a nun i would become i thot....
n just as i was to sign my name in the dotted line...
u grab mi hand and take me away...
and once again i stand here on the road but a smile spreads across my face...
for i am alone no more